New Year’s Resolutions. Or Something Like That.

I’m a bit late to the New Year’s Resolution game. Or at least I am late in writing about it. I do have some things planned. Several personal goals. A few things I’m participating in. Some garden attention.  There will be a lot going on in addition to waiting-on-pins-and-needles for my Dad’s liver transplant.

grow and resist snow and ice robins and hawthorn tree

1) Get My Business Launched.  I am in the process of starting a business doing edible garden design and helping people with backyard chickens, wildlife habitats, and pollinator gardens.  I mentioned I had something up my sleeve back in August so it has been in the works for a bit now and I’m about ready to launch!  Sometime in the next month I’ll fill you in more on this, beg for you to spread the word, shamelessly ask for business, and spill my hopes and dreams.  Stay tuned! Woot!

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The robins love the berries

2) Run a Marathon. I’m signed up to run the Seattle Rock n’ Roll Marathon June 23rd.  Yes, I’ve run marathons before. I ran Seattle twice and Sacramento once. Plus the marathons at the end of each Ironman triathlon, but those are separate in my mind from the marathon as a unique event.  They are more intended shuffle than run. If you add it up though, that makes 5 marathons. I like to run, what can I say?

I need to exercise. I crave it. And yet, I’m not doing it. Sure, there are reasons. I have a really hard time not thinking of them as excuses because I am trying to be more mindful of context in my life. While not insurmountable, context does matter. Sick Dad. Soul-sucking job. Parenting. Partner with mystery illness during and post PhD process. Wrist surgery, a herniated disc and subsequent healing process.   It all adds up and, eventually, something goes. For me it was exercising. I fell out of the exercise habit.

I have had some unsuccessful attempts to get my groove on, but what I know is that nothing gets me back in the mode better than signing up for an event. An event just difficult enough that I can’t blow off training.  On impulse one night I signed up. Eeeps. Yep. Marathon pre-training starts Monday.

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Ice on the plum tree. I hope I still get fruit.

3) Lose Weight. I so hate putting this on the list. It is such a typical new years resolution that I just inherently balk at it. There is such a tyranny of (and obsession with) body size and weight in this country.  I am no weight freak. Just because someone is super skinny in no way makes them healthy, nor is someone a bit heavier necessarily unhealthy.

Other than a time about 10 years ago when I rather quickly gained, and then lost, a chunk of weight, I have been roughly the same baseline weight  (±10 pounds) since early high school– at least 25 years. I’ll never be a string bean nor do I want to be. However, I am 100% certain that at my so-called baseline weight, a weight some would say I could stand to lose 10-15 pounds (or 20), I am in much better shape cardiovascularly than most anyone.

The bottom line for me is that I feel better at my pre-pregnancy weight. And since the Babylady is now 4 it seems it isn’t going away by itself (damn it). Postpartum things got away from me. I was pretty lax. I knew I was training for an Ironman triathlon and was breastfeeding. I just assumed the weight would just fly off me. I mean really? How could it not fall off?  I was breastfeeding and everyone tells you lies to you that you will drop all your weight that way. I was exercising approximately a bazillion hours a week.  Except, it didn’t fall off. Sure, I dropped some during training, but it came on again after training was done. So, here I am, at a weight that feels really uncomfortable to me.  With more excuses that I care to list about why it hasn’t changed.

I know how to do it. I know I will do it. Up till now I’ve lacked commitment and consciousness.

However, know that I won’t stop drinking, restaurants/take out when I want, give up pizza, bacon, butter, or full-fat cheese.  Puh-lease. There will never be any fat or sugar substitutes, or mystery snacks here.  It is all the same good stuff people. You know, just a little less if it.

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Cool lavender

Which brings me to cooking challenges. You may think such things to be against the idea of weight loss and exercise. And you are wrong. Totally untrue. The more you cook at home, the more you control what is in the food you eat. The better you get at preparing things, the less tempted you are to go out. The more prepared you are to make awesome things, the more likely you are to make awesome things.

Cooking. It is key.

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Icy, feather grass

4) Can and Preserve More. I was on a canning streak doing Tigress’ Can Jam in 2010. I learned a lot. Made some amazing things (and some awful things). I carried the seasons through the year. It was great.  And then in 2011 I didn’t can much at all. Tomatoes, for sure. But not much else. No relish. No chutney. Sad. This year I’m going to review the end of the month round ups by Tigress (you can see the list of the monthly round ups on her side bar), as well as the lists I made of things I wanted to try. I’ll pick something and preserve it.

Perhaps even more important to me with the Can Jam though was that I got connected with some really fantastic people (and you peeps know who you are) that I’ve come to love and respect more than most people I know ‘in real life.’  It is a fantastic community and I am grateful to those I know. Internet love.

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unhappy bamboo

5) Grow it Cook it Can it: Do it!  Caroline realized that in making her kitchen resolutions she had the perfect year-long project of activities to become more accomplished at doing.  At the end of last year she put forth a challenge of “a year of twelve different skills, mainly centered around making foods from scratch that I may not currently be doing, or that I want to do more of, especially thinking about those last few ingredients that I still buy at a store.”  Sounds pretty great right?  First assignment is Pasta. Which is about perfect as it is about top of the list of things I want to perfect. I always have fresh, likely-still-warm eggs on hand. Flour and salt. And a pasta machine. All that I lack is the confidence to bust it out more often.  I want to get good enough to avoid completely destroying the kitchen in a flour cloud.

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Robin love

6) Tea and Cookies Cooking Challenge A few days ago I noticed that Tara at Tea & Cookies is doing a cooking challenge too.  It is similar, yet different from the one at Grow It Cook It Can It. This challenge focuses more on things like pie crusts, soufflés, and croissants.  I am excited because I have some weird cooking hang ups. For a long time I would not make things that called for cooking milk. Which is ridiculous, but it seemed so finicky. Of course, it wasn’t. I am the same way about pie crust. I say I can’t make one because it sounds hard. But really I haven’t ever tried. No more avoiding things I know I can do.  First challenge is sourdough, the Ladyfriend’s favorite bread.

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7) The ongoing adventure to grow more of what we want and need. Erica at Northwest Edible Life just posted a spreadsheet she did to help her planning on how much to plant. I am excited to give it a try and not my usual methods of “Oh just put in as many tomatoes as we can!“, “Let’s grow some completely inefficient use of space corn because it is fun!“, and “I think we should devote a lot of space to eggplant that only I eat just to see if we can grow it!

Those are the biggies for 2012!

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Mountain Mama checks out the snow and ice

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January Mid-Month Meanderings III

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Cute Red-breasted Nuthatch

January isn’t the most interesting month in Seattle from a gardening perspective. Things are pretty bare and most certainly soggy. On a little walk around last week I noticed the tips of some of the crocuses are popping up, which always makes me feel a bit giddy at the thought of spring. The premature glee is pretty much a set up for future depression though, as Seattle still faces several months of dreary and wet winter, followed by a few months of faux-spring, until we finally settle into an actual (and predictable) spring-like weather in May or thereabouts.

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a Bushtit at the feeder

That aside, I love snow. Adore it. Seattle in snow is funny. Or maybe a tragic comedy. We are never prepared. The roads don’t get plowed. No one can drive. Everyone freaks out.  People are peeved if schools close and up-in-arms if they don’t. People are agitated if the city buses over-prepare and downright hostile if they don’t.  Fools attempt to drive up steep, iced-over hills. (Or down like this). The snow is icy as it is rarely far below freezing so it constantly slushes and refreezes, slushes and refreezes.  It is usually a complete mess.

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The Babylady's snow person (melting). With funny kale hair and eyes.

But I embrace it. Welcome it. Crave it. A winter without snow is just not winter.  The weather news is in a tizzy about an impending Snowmageddon and Snowpocolypse coming tonight. That was maybe going to be here yesterday. Or today. Or tonight. Tomorrow maybe?  And could last until tomorrow night. Or friday. And possibly 4-8 inches. Or 6-14 inches. Or maybe just 1-4 inches. No matter. Whatever it is, it will surely be a mess.  But me? I’ll be walking down to the park with the Babylady, Ladyfriend, and the new slippery sled to get our snow play on. Sure, it can be inconvenient. But really? Most of us could stand to slow down a bit and belly laugh while flying down a hill with snow up our noses. Right?

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Icicles on the chicken coop

January mid month meanderings grow and resist chard with snow

Despite the snow pushing down on the hoops things underneath are looking good. Plenty of chard and lettuce still going strong!

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A Northern Flicker dropped by for a bit today

Hope your new year is off to a great start and you are pouring over incoming seed catalogs and dreaming of growth!

Previous Mid-Month Meanderings.

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Cranberry Meyer Lemon Collins (and Dehydrated Meyer Lemons)

It is no secret I am jealous of climates conducive to growing citrus. I love citrus. I’ve talked about citrus. I’m even going to try my luck at growing citrus in Seattle. It can’t hurt to try, right?

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My parents grow citrus. They have a Meyer Lemon, a variety or two of limes, a Mandarin Orange, and the biggest lemon tree I have ever seen hanging over their fence. Luckily for me, they grow it. I am not exactly sure they use it however. Which means they bring me bags of citrus when they come to Seattle or I bring it home when I go to California.

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I found myself with a large bag of Meyer lemons on the counter just begging for some marmalading but zero free time. I was heading out-of-town so decided the easiest thing to do (meaning the thing that would cause the least amount of undue stress) was to slice and dehydrate most of them as Well Preserved  and Food in Jars have done.

grow and resist meyer lemons dehydrate

I am not sure what I’ll do with them yet.  The house sure smelled fantastic when they were dehydrating though!

I wanted to do something else though. A little facebook chat with Kate of Snowflake Kitchen got me thinking about a Meyer Lemon Collins. She used equal parts gin, lemon juice, simple syrup and a bit of fizzy water. Seriously? How good does that sound? Sweet, citrusy, gin-y? Pretty perfect right? And then I added sweetened cranberries and it was amazing. I wanted 8 of them. Which would be generally unflattering.

Yep. Lemon and cranberries are a classic flavor combination. I had a jar of leftover cranberry/simple syrup in the fridge from making the Cranberry Gin and Tonics I told you about last month. Perfect addition? I think so!

If you don’t have cranberries conveniently soaking in simple syrup (and really, who does?) you can bring 1 (12 ounce) bag of cranberries, ½ cup of sugar, and ¼ cup of water to a simmer in a saucepan.  Simmer, uncovered until berries start to pop, about 2 minutes. Cool before using.

Cranberry Meyer Lemon Collins

  • 2 ounces gin
  • 2 ounces freshly squeezed Meyer lemons (about one large)
  • 2 ounces simple syrup
  • top with fizzy water (thank you Sodastream!)
  • 2 tablespoons prepared cranberries
  1. Shake ingredients in cocktail shaker and pour over ice. Or add them to a glass of ice and stir.
  2. Drink the sweet, slightly tart gorgeousness of it all.
  3. Be ever so grateful for your parent’s Meyer Lemon tree.
grow and resist meyer lemons

Note to self: Photographs of drinks taken indoors, in Seattle, will never turn out ok within the time constraints of your patience. Give it up.

The Ladyfriend and I just flew to California to pick up my parent’s car and drive it to them in Iowa. But not before I pilfered all their citrus! With my next batch I’ll make marmalade or maybe some Meyer Limoncello Meyer Lemon Butter Cookies, or maybe some more Figgy Lemon Chutney because I’m out!
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2012: Here We Go Again

The beginning of a new year seem to bring up lists, resolutions, goals, and starts. I can’t decide if I am a resolution person or not. I am most certainly a list person. I definitely think about goals in my head, but I think I leave most of them there. Quietly (though incessantly) nagging me. I imagine I would make more resolutions if it wasn’t so scary.  If I didn’t feel like I was setting myself up for failure. Or the worst kind of failure, public failure. To avoid all that, I’m pathetically vague. I say things like “I’d like to think about possibly maybe ____. Or not. I am not sure.” (Yes, I am completely aware of my need for therapeutic intervention.)

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Iowa City

Yet, I like deadlines. Clear beginnings.  Obvious ends. I like to start things from the beginning.  For example, I won’t watch movies if I’ve missed the very start. Scheduling something to start at the beginning of the year works for me. There is January 1. December 31. Beginning. End.  It is already broken down into months, weeks, and days. It is easy to compare year to year. This is important, to me at least, because if I am comparing how something was in July to February, the experience, efforts, means, etc will be very different.  It is better to compare July to July and leave February to mingle with February.

Anyway, I’ve thought of some goals. I might even dare to call them resolutions. But first.

A Little Story Before the Resolutions (Or Goals. Plans. Whatever.)

Were you with me at the beginning of last year? Well, it blew.  2010 was winding up with my Dad increasingly ill from what we thought was a rather mysterious cardiac issue.  2010 ended with my mom calling me, panicky, on New Year’s Eve because my Dad was close to passing out, lethargic, somewhat confused, and didn’t want to go to the ER.  They went. Turns out my dad was bleeding out. My 6’4″ Dad had a hematocrit of 15% (normal is 45) and hemoglobin of 5 g/dl (normal is 14). He was on coumadin (blood thinner).  I flew down to CA with my brother to be there while we figured out what was going on.

Apparently nobody at any time during his supposedly thorough cardiac and liver workup, across multiple specialities (cardiologist, pulmonologist, liver, endocrine, and primary care) thought to check the most basic of blood work. For months. Despite his presenting symptoms (pale, fatigue, shortness of breath).  Symptoms that were the very reason for his months of evaluation. The then-still-oncology nurse in me had some stuff to say about the negligence in his work-up and ongoing assessment. I won’t even begin to tell you how I lost my shit to anyone who would listen about that.

What medical professional doesn’t auto-fucking-matically think of looking at a CBC (complete blood count- a common test you get with any yearly physical even if you have no symptoms) when someone is pale, fatigued, and short of breath? Furthermore, when a patient has those symptoms and is on blood thinners what medical professional doesn’t inquire about presence of any bleeding, red or tarry?

Yes, for a control freak like myself this was a special circle of hell.

Unfortunately, we found out it wasn’t an easily fixable cardiac problem like we’d then feared and soon wished for.  He had advanced liver disease.  Known as NASH or Nonalcholic Steatohepatitis.  It is basically advanced cirrhosis in someone who doesn’t drink alchohol.

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Image from www.isokineticsinc.com

Over the next 6 months he got evaluated in California and in Iowa for potential liver transplant, as transplant is the only cure for NASH. The blows continued along the way as we found out that a clot he had in his portal (liver) veins had grown  to the point of complete blockage and that his liver was no longer operable at some institutions and transplant wouldn’t be an option.  And there is no treatment for clots in the portal vein system.

Luckily, he was able to get worked up in Iowa and his clot ever so slightly decreased so that the surgeon there is able to do it (even though many institutions don’t have the same capacity).   Since then it has been a confusing process of waiting for various medical boards to meet allowing him to get on the transplant list. Six months of every-3-week endoscopies for my dad to manage complications of his disease. Barbaric.

But December 30th, almost 1 year to the day of his near-bleed out, he got a call from Iowa. My Dad is first on the list! My folks are on a plane head for Iowa as I type to wait! (Incidentally, if you have seen this about Iowa, give it a watch. Unless you are offended by swearing. In that case, definitely don’t.)

Things are clearly up in the air. There is no known timing. It could happen tomorrow. It could happen in 3 months. It could go smoothly. It could be a rough ride. There is no way of knowing. (Umm, have I mentioned what a control freak I am? How I like need a plan?) There is no plan. No plan people.

Which brings me back to resolutions. Goals. Plans.

I don’t have any.

I have a lot of them.

Both are true.

I’ll share them soon.

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Top Posts of 2011

End of the year. Wrapping things up. Looking behind.  Last year I gave you  Top 5 posts of 2010.  This year, I’m going for 10. While some posts from 2010 continue to rank higher, this list if for posts from 2011.

You all seem to follow along with some of my randomness.  Talks of urban homestead, charcuterie, salads, chickens, food preservation, and books all piqued your interest.

Top 10 Posts of 2011

  1. Urban Homestead 2.1   Oh, that greedy Dervaes family and their ridiculous trademark scandal. Urban Homestead, Urban Homestead, Urban Homestead.
  2. Charcuterie: (Salt Curing, the Apprentice Challenge) Bacon

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    Pork Belly!

  3. The Urban Farm Handbook: Review and Giveaway

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    There also fantastic photographs inside

  4. (Urban) Homestead: A Different Kind of Critique  A bit more homestead talk.  In the end “I want us to get collectively angry enough that we produce a revolutionary and systemic change.  A change to the systems that create injustices.  As long as we are rooted in our participation of capitalism and rugged individualism we remain stuck. Stuck in a system that oppresses us all.”  Power to the people!
  5. Got Tomatoes?

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    That is a lot of tomatoes!

  6. The Fabulousness of Polish Hens. Introducing Lady Guitar, the Second

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    Fantastic chicken!

  7. Hip Girl’s Guide to Homemaking: Review and Book Giveaway

    hip girls guide to homemaking + kate payne + book review + grow and resist

    Hipness!

  8. Charcutepalooza: Brining and Corned Beef

    grow and resist charcutepalooza brining corned beef

    Greatest hash I've had. Yes. I said it. It was awesome!

  9. For the Love of Salads: Cherry Arugula Bread Salad

    grow and resist for the love of salads cherry arugula bread salad

    I realize that is a ridiculous amount of feta. But the Babylady will eat it all so I need to account for her consumption and ensure everyone else will get some cheese!

  10. A Tale of Two Chickens

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    Ripplin' Waters- Barred Rock.

Whew!

In case you were wondering,  my top favorite posts were:

Some of my favorite bloggers have 2011 lists (and I hope more do them. I love lists!) Local Kitchen, Crunchy Chicken, and Northwest Edible Life all have lists up. Well-Preserved has a series looking at things they learned over the year. Check them out!

Did you have a favorite post? Or is there something you’d like more of in 2012?  I don’t know about you, but I am eagerly awaiting the arrival of 2012!

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